Quasar, you sound like you might get something out of the book I mentioned. Check it out if you don't mind self-help psychology; even if you do, this one may be interesting enough to you to make it worth the effort.
I'll see if I can track it down.
ExPatMatt wrote:My pet bird dying
I'm exactly the same. I get extremely
attached to my birds, and had a horribly painful experience when one of them was attacked by a hawk. The predator must have walked right up to the cage and grabbed her wing through the cage. When I got home, I found her on the bottom of the cage, still alive, with her wing almost entirely torn off and blood everywhere.
We knew it was going to be fatal, but the bird was still alive. Thankfully, she seemed to go into a state of peace and stop feeling the pain after an hour or two. She ended up hanging on the rest of the afternoon and dying sometime during the night.
That was one of the worst afternoons of my life.
Oh man, now you're all going to think I actually have emotions. My reputation is ruined!